Wednesday, April 13, 2011

what a week

It has been a challenging week and one we will never forget. I have been so amazed by all the wonderful support we have been given and the love we have felt from our friends and family.

Max hadn't been feeling well with a cold and a high fever on Sunday night so we took him to the Instacare where they found he was developing pneumonia in his lungs =(. They sent us home with some breathing treatments and some antibiotics. They seemed to help him a little but he was still having a hard time sleeping that night. Monday morning he was acting more like himself so that made us happy even though he still was under the weather which we knew would probably take a week or two to fully recover.

I had been thinking so much about Max I almost forgot I had my 12 week apt Monday and so Alex stayed with Max while I ran up to the Women's Center. At the doctor I was not expecting to hear the sad news that she could not find a heartbeat for the baby and that I had miscarried. I had not been bleeding at all and was far enough along that we had to schedule a D & C procedure to be done. It was a lot to take in all at once. After many tears and emotions, I'm beginning to think this is what they mean by "April Showers".

leading up to the procedure and after I have felt so much peace.

We have felt so much love and support from family and close friends. So many kind and understanding words, I feel so thankful for both our wonderful families and know that everything is going to be ok. I have felt and seen the blessings that prayer has and know that there has been many prayers in our behalf.

Max is doing so much better and we are so thankful that we have his smiling face to look at everyday!! We feel very blessed. Sometimes the plans we have are different then the plan the Lord has. I'm thankful to have to Gospel and I trust that all will work out for the best. Thanks again for all your love


24 comments:

Mike and Lindsey Martineau said...

Anna, I had no idea. I am so sorry to hear your sad news. You and Alex are amazing. The Lord loves you and has a plan for all of us. Please let me know if you need anything, your cute little family is in our prayers. Love you!

chelsey said...

Oh, I'm sooo sorry to hear that! You have such strong faith, Anna! It's hard that we have to go through these trials, but without them, I don't think we'd fully appreciate all of our blessings. And it looks like you haven't missed a beat! So glad Max is recovering so you get to see his cute smiling face everyday...I'm sure it helps! Hope you get lots of loves from your boys :)

Sammy said...

Oh Anna I'm so sorry. Hang in there, you are so strong and amazing! Hope Max feels better and that your week starts getting better.

megan and darin said...

oh man i'm so sorry. i can see why the video helped you out this week.

Angie said...

I am so sorry Anna this is heartbreaking to hear. I wish I lived closer to give you a hug! I will keep you in my prayers. I know it can be really hard but your so right when you say the Lord knows what is best at this time. Take care and know I love you!

Unknown said...

anna this breaks my heart! I love you so much girl. I'm so sorry to hear this. I am happy to read you are going to be in Salt lake for the summer though! I'll be in bountiful for a whole week so we have to get together as much as possible during that time!!!! I miss you like crazy and I love you so much! I know I don't live close but if you ever want someone to chit chat with I'm just a phone call away. love you!

Brad.Kenz.Max.Kannon said...

Anna i'm so sorry to hear the sad news! I can't imagine going through that. I'm glad to hear that little Max is doing better though, it is not fun at all when the babes are sick! Our prayers are with your family, it seems like you have, but just in case I hope that you can find comfort and peace!

The Huffs said...

Anna... this Missy. I have to tell you... I read your post a week ago that you were expecting. I was happy for you but I have to say that I was sad in my heart because I had just found out I had a miscarriage. I went to my ten week appointment and they told me there wasnt a heartbeat. They had to a D&C. My due date was supposed to be October 2nd. I was actually so excited for you and thought I would cheer on your pregnancy in a little way of holding onto my own. I am so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. Please know that i am thinking of you and praying for you. I know that Heavenly Father is aware of you and has a plan for your cute family!

WhIt and TaN said...

Love you millers. Im sorry this has happened. But you are so strong and positive. I am glad you have found some peace in the situation. And I am glad little max is getting better. Let me know if you ever need anything or someone to talk too.

Kelsey said...

i am so sorry to hear this, anna. i know i would be just in pieces if i lost my baby. please let me know if you need anything.

The Hokansons said...

I am sorry Anna. I can't imagine how you feel. You are such a good example of being positive and strong during hard times! Hope you are ok.

Megan said...

I'm sure our little babes are playing with each other up there :) Love you, can't wait for our run!

Anonymous said...

Anna,

I miscarried as well after I had our first, Lilly. It was way harder than I ever imagined it would be. I'm so sorry. I feel for you at this time. I'm happy to hear Max is feeling a bit better. Love you.

Josh and Heidi said...

Anna,

I am so sorry to hear what happened! I can't even imagine going through all those emotions! My thoughts and prayers are with you!

The Becks said...

Anna, you're amazing. You've got such a wonderful outlook and such strong faith - you and Alex are incredible people and I'm sad to hear of the hard time you're going through, but look to you as an example for your outlook! I hope you are doing okay, if you need ANYTHING, let us know. Love you girl.

Brit said...

Anna, We have been thinking about you and praying for you all week. I love you and am so lucky to have you as a sister. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Brit said...

Anna, We have been thinking about you and praying for you all week. I love you and am so lucky to have you as a sister. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Taylor Jewell said...

I am so sorry. Hope things start getting better for you guys.

Mike and Lauren said...

I second what Holly said. We love you guys so much and are so grateful to have gotten to know you more throughout the time we've been able to work with you. You guys are in our prayers and we know that the Lord has a plan in mind for us all - it's so hard to try and understand what it is certain things are supposed to teach us or lead us to. Love you tons.

JakeandMichelle said...

Anna that breaks my heart to read that. Im so sorry that happened but you are so strong and you guys are both amazing and will get through it. I love you and let me know if you need anything!

Kylene said...

Anna, I am SO sorry to hear about this. I understand completely what you're going through. You and your beautiful family are in my prayers. Love you.

Wes and Dani said...

Anna, I was shocked to read this. I'm so sorry!! Having gone through 2 miscarriages myself, I can empathize with what you must be going through. It is amazingly difficult. All the best to your little family during this hard time.

Emily and Ryan said...

Wow. What an extremely hard week. I am so sorry to hear that. My heart went out to you guys. You are a wonderful family. It was so good to see you guys at Jordy's wedding. I think Max is adorable.

Jeremy & Stacy said...

I am so sorry to hear the news. We love you guys. Things will get better, hang in there.